I remember when I met you after chugging energy drinks that day and wondering if my heart was juddering from the sight of you or just the caffeine kicking in.
I wish the world could do me a favor and just end today.
If everything I touched turned to stone
I’d hold my heart and call it forever my own
If I could hold myself and turn to rubble
Perhaps I won’t have to go through all this trouble
I want to run or die or get fucked up. I want to be blind and dumb and have no heart. I want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I want to wipe my existence straight off the map.